A few days ago, I decided I wasn’t going to persevere with my blog. Self-doubt levels were off the scale at this point. It’s too hard to get the blog going since having our daughter Olivia; I’m busy looking after Max (slap bang in the middle of terrible 2’s); I’m stretched enough putting our house back together after what feels like an epic 5 month extension. I’m tired. I have zero motivation. And to top it off, I’m not exactly living the most thrilling life right now. Getting the kids to sleep at night and sitting down for dinner with my hubby is as exciting as it gets. There are so many bloggers out there anyway so there’s little or no chance a brand new blog like mine will make it. How can I possibly make it in the blogging world?
These are some of the things I told myself. The blog was only active for three months and then I took a break around Olivia’s birth. But I was about to accept failure before really giving it a chance.
I revisited my blog for one last time. Having had a few months away, returning to it made me look at it with fresh eyes. Everything about it seemed wrong. I wasn’t keen on the turquoise colour. The style was too busy. The font was too fussy and the posts and photos weren’t engaging.
Suddenly I had all the drive I needed. I was desperate to change it. It was the Eureka moment for me and I realised I’m not ready to give up on the blog. Not without giving it a really good chance.
I’ve read so many brilliant posts by bloggers about how they started, early mistakes they made and how to persevere, even when it feels like nobody is listening. Why would I give up after only 20 posts? Yes I’m pushed for time but I’m just going to have to do the best I can. Beyond that, I’ll hope for a miracle that I can make a success of it.
So I’m back. Miss me?
And I’m back with a few changes I hope you’ll like.
Fresh Start, Fresh Look
It’s taken me a while to realise what I like and what I don’t like in terms of blog style. In fact, it’s taken me a while to recognise I even have my own style. The turquoise had to go – as much as I love the colour. I’ve gone for something cleaner and more minimalist which seems a better fit for the content I’ve got in mind.
With two very little ones to care for, I know I can’t commit as much time as I’d like to the blog. I’ve got to be realistic in terms of what I can achieve. I’m not going to stress out about how many posts I’m publishing. As a blogger, I know there are a heap of things I should be doing. From using a DSLR for better shots, SEO, adding affiliate links – all to drive traffic to the blog. I should be active on social media. I’m a self-confessed Instagram addict and you can find me here. As for Twitter, well to be brutally honest, I just hate it. It’s not for me. Pinterest? I’m a big fan and I’ll get round to using it properly at some point.
But life is seriously hectic right now and for the time-being at least, I’m throwing the blogging rulebook out the metaphorical window. I’ll do what I can, when I can. In the meantime, having the blog as a creative outlet and using it to share things I love is its main purpose. I know that’s not going to get me anywhere fast but Rome wasn’t built in a day.
I haven’t managed to find time/energy/inspiration for my own blog but breast-feeding does have it’s advantages – some down time to browse other blogs. One of the things I love most about reading other people’s blogs is that I get the chance to find out about various views and different styles. I’m now following a collection of voices and hearing so many inspirational stories.
And that’s something I’d like to pursue on my blog in my own way. I won’t give too much away at this stage but I’d like to include feature posts on a topic close to my heart right now. Watch this space…
Well that’s it for now. Thanks for reading. I’d love to know your thoughts so feel free to comment.